laurenpower

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 18:53:00 GMT

i have been pretty pretty busy.

Sun, 26 Aug 2007 20:48:22 GMT

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 01:36:56 GMT

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 13:46:49 GMT

things:

last week i got tattooed, on wednesday night. i sat for a 6.5 hour session, and i would say it sucked, but only about 25% of it REALLY sucked. greg came with me, and i felt bad he had to sit for so long, but he was good support and told jokes and held my hand and coffee too. today my arm is so itchy that i want to claw it off. in a couple of weeks, once the rest of this is healed, i will go back for colour and that is a really exciting thing. tattoos.

this weekend, on sunday, we went for a super bike ride to lawrencetown, or maybe actually furthur than that, im not sure. it took about 5 hours for the whole trip, including eating and stuff. it was probably the best day from this whole summer. we biked the whole way along the ocean and there was barely any wind and the sun was out the whole time. we did good, but he was tougher than me, since he did the whole thing on his fixed! i couldn't believe it. i would have barfed. i wish i took pictures.

in a couple of weeks, we will be leaving i hope for a bike trip to p.e.i. if anyone has made this trip from halifax, maybe you could let me know. also if anyone has ever visited iles-de-la-madeleine, maybe you could let me know also! i hope we can figure out this trip even though it is last minute and we don't own anything we need to be bikepunks (bunks). lend us camping gear! lend us paniers! lend us yr brains!

this friday, the group show im in will finish up at the anna gallery. if you want to laugh, you should come down and check it out. its been going on for a week, and changes every minute basically, so it would be good to come in a couple of times even. it is ridiculous and pretty weird and it's in gallery 2.

greg's bday is in a week or so, which makes it really 1 year since i was really obsessed with him. last year on his birthday i think i convinced rachael p. to come to his birthday party at the speakeasy even though we weren't invited, and we were pretty wasted, and honestly i played footsie with him for a while and i think we both tried not to puke and look cute. i forget what happened after that, probably rachael and i went to reflections or the commons. that summer she and i would drink in the commons alot, because i had a crush on this crust punk, but then he moved to newfoundland or maybe ottawa and then drinking inthe commons was way less fun.

the weather says sun but the sky says cloud. OH BOY.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 19:08:22 GMT

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 19:50:56 GMT

hi web
so now i am back from my trip with greg to quebec and ontario. we had a lot of fun and got to do lots of fun things, like hang out with my long lost soulmate greg denton. it was right nice; lots of sun and eating and swimming and cars. ottawa was pretty bad as usual, but urban behaviour just keeps getting better and better. chelsea is still amazing. it is good to be back in halifax, sort of, but things stress me out here real quick and i need to get calm, like i am when ma is around.

i am back at school for the 2nd half of summer, but i have decided today that i am not going to graduate this summer. instead, i am going to finish my studio course and not deal with art histories right now and try instead to have more bike rides, more xposix cooking, and more good art and less bad art. in the wake of my studio tragedy***, i feel unprepared to be brave and tackle big things. i need to be small and focused and productive. my heart beats too fast at night, and breathing is becoming a challenge (not good.) i feel sort of dumb that i will be returning in the fall for only one course, but i will be living here in the fall anyway, so i might as well have something (sort of) worth looking forward to.

also, i am moving out of my cake house soon, so i am officially giving the internet my notice. my room will be available sept.1 2007, maybe earlier. if you are interested in cake, boats, attics, geometry, and cheap rent, this could be the right room for you. it is really cute and full of surprises. i will be moving more north, so i will be right close to keira which is greatly exciting. i will also be living with a total babe, who i think is into me, so things couldn't be better.

lastly, i am getting more tattoo work done next week. this is also greatly exciting and i can't wait. it has been almost a year since my last tattoo, excluding my prison job, so it is time! hooray.

i hope people are doing well, alot of you i miss alot. i think my nose will be out of the books from here on in, so maybe it is time to get re-con-nec-ted.

in solidarity,
l.

ps. ***my entire private studio was thrown in the garbage by a new nscad maintenance employee. this has consumed me on about every single level of my life for the last 3 weeks. i lost approx. 1 year of irreplaceable work, research, and gifts, and i think i have aged about 2 years as a result. as it stands right now, my meetings regarding this issue (which are destroying my soul and entirely ruining art school for me) should be finishing up this week. please cross your fingers for me that things will be resolved in my best interest. also, art school is not the greatest; especially this one.

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 18:12:15 GMT

detail from another print, also too big to scan.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 00:56:12 GMT

details from a big print; too lrg to scan!

also these stupid losers showed up for critical mass, wtf.

this guy just ate fries the whole ride

i made this about jock art/matthew barney

we are all so sad because of the weather. fuck you halifax.

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 13:23:16 GMT

one more week of school until we have a week off and then we go back to school!
things are so busy and so exhausting but that is ok, because hard work is good for the soul. yesterday i had a marathon day screenprinting and wailed out 3 images, maybe editions of 10? 12 hour day, start to finish, barf. in the last couple days i have finished 5 different sets of prints, 2 of which are my biggest yet. how do people scan big prints anyway?
i have a couple more prints to pull off before next friday, and an essay too, and some studio work too. then school will be done, and greg and i will go on a baby trip to quebec and maybe see the sun. then we will never come back and just bike for life basically.

also, critical mass ride for no-atlantica this evening.
also buy things from me. like, anything. art or my stuff. im right broke.

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 14:26:02 GMT

these things are not for sale, because they are my treasures, the ones i love best!

this is my bike i am riding now, it is the most beautiful thing i have ever owned.

this is my street. it is summer now. this street is magical.

screenprinting, everyday, forever!

this is the person i love the hardest.

also for sale

Fri, 01 Jun 2007 19:40:04 GMT

colours are way nicer IRL, and clean
balloons say 'lost in the struggle'

selling things, in the days to come

Thu, 31 May 2007 16:37:52 GMT

Wed, 16 May 2007 17:27:49 GMT

i am taking too much school.

Wed, 09 May 2007 23:16:03 GMT

so far it has been summer for almost 3 days, which has ruled
the things about summer so far that rule are:
1. new bike
2. growlers almost everyday
3. not being miserable because of the doom cloud (not the original doom cloud btw)
4. first stick n poke tattoo in life (they hurt even if you think you are tough,)
5. school, good things impending, i am sure.
6. living with d.bush
7. living with magic
8. also i made straight A's in school last semester

so far the things that fucking suck are:
1. literally having basically no friends in this city anymore
2. missing lyndall and amanda approx. all the time
3. realizing family doesn't really care about me at all
4. feeling strange/readjusting to vegetariansm??

il lpost pictures of my bike soon, so people can cry/want to pet it.

oh wait, also, another best thing of summer so far:
9. rachael parsons show at lost & found SERIOUSLY! SO GOOD!
10. seeing autumn storm that time at the speakeasy

dont get in bike accidents, also.

2 young 2 rock

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 14:10:07 GMT

re: "more girls in the pit!!!!" (lame)

""It's not about hurting anybody," the article quoted Henry not-yet-Rollins. "It's just letting go, just going off. A lot of kids live in good places, their parents are rich. That doesn't keep you from being mad or feeling angry or outraged or alienated."
By mid-1981, the punks' "letting go" had effectively barred women from both the dance floor and the stage. The dozen bands who played the first massive Wilson Center show included only one woman: Toni Young, bassist of Red C. This was particularily striking since so many of the earlier local punk bands, including the Urban Verbs, the Slickee Boys, the Nurses, Tru Fax and the Insaniacs, Tiny Desk Unit, DCeats, and the Shirkers had female members. Early scene-maker Sharon Cheslow recalls dancing to Teen Idles and Bad Brains at Madams Organ. "I was right up at the front of the stage. It wasn't called slamdancing then, but it was very physical. I could withstand it. So for me to say it was rough by 1981, you know it's rough. I started looking at the scene and asking myself, 'Am i really with a group of friends?' A lot of the girls felt the way I did and started dropping out."
In 1979-80, there were nearly as many women as men in the audience for hardcore shows, but by late 1981 new female converts like Pickering, Connolly, or Janelle Simmons were rare. "At the time I was blind to it," said the latter, "but looking backnow, women didn't really have a place."
"I wasn't into slamdancing," recalled Anne Bonafede, another longtime punk fan. "It was too male oriented. Around Minor Threat and SOA I started feeling really alienated from the scene. I used to love to go out to shows and dance but by then you couldn't reallybecause you might get hurt seriously." The women who did continue attending hardcore shows had to do so on the terms set by their male peers. "We were trying to be boys," said Pickering."

-excerpt from "Dance of Days: Two Decades of Punk in the Nation's Capital" (Mark Anderson & Mark Jenkins)

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 21:00:57 GMT

i will be in ottawa for the next 6 days, also the sun just came out for the first time in four.
also the loved ones and strike anywhere tonight!
xo

keep toronto out of the north end.

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 23:58:36 GMT

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 02:49:18 GMT

today we had this "collage workshop" in one of my classes (i know, right) and i was all bitter about it so i just kept trying to sabotage everyone's collages, but it didn't really work and i think i just made them look better really. mostly i just wrote "NON LINEAR LIFESTYLES" all over everything, and i think it's pretty hard to sabotage shit when you have a good life motto like that.

so i am graduating after all this summer, so i will be around and in school after all. i am excited for some of it, but mostly i am excited because i will be riding around on my fire truck red pinarello all summer long because i am finished being paranoid about it being stolen and i just want it back so badly! also in the summer i am going ultra femme and im going to have blond hair and perfumes and dresses and shit. but i'll sstill bike tuff as nails, so don't freak.

otherwise i have some ideas planned for summer videos and stuff and ill need volunteers !! , only get back to me if you're cute though and not that fat because cameras + 10 pounds and i just don't have time to photoshop that shit.

i feel aggressive, non sexual though.

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 16:04:33 GMT

Being made to feel less than good, less than special or valued, less than what you know you're worth, and even if it's only once, is just one time too many.
Feeling hurt or sad just isn't an option when you realize you have two perfectly strong legs and one tough heart, programmed long ago to know when to walk away.

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 05:26:51 GMT

does anyone have any connections in these places:
brooklyn
chicago
boston
san diego

additionally, is anyone travelling to any of these places in the next couple months:
brooklyn
chicago
boston
san diego

let me know/let's go biking?
thanks

make things work.

Sun, 18 Mar 2007 22:15:14 GMT

sunday afternoons. who knows.
it's strange, i guess, this time of year. things finish up and we trade houses and lovers and move away and move on. things happen, and situations arise, things start to change. it's strange, but not unwelcome, this time of year.

after finding out that i am not able to graduate this summer, a whole mess of plans have kind of tangled together. confusing and annoying and not like i'd planned. this news prompts about a million new questions and scenarios about living here this summer, moving away in september, undergrad and graduate schools, etc etc etc. it's messy. all i know at this point is that i have booked a plane ticket to quebec for april, and i have a pretty big bag that can carry a lot of stuff for a long time.

i've done alot of work this week. alot of work and alot of reading and alot of time to spend with friends and roomates who are friends also. no smoking (almost) no drinking (almost) and no irrational spending (almost). straight laced living. it's been nice. i could keep this up, i feel good and decent.

days like today i really feel like i could just throw on some solid boots and walk away forever. not in a bad way, not in an angsty rebellious way, not to be rude or cold, nothing malicious, days like today i just feel like it would be good to go. i would, i think, if only i had some springsteen on my ipod. shucks.

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 21:08:59 GMT

well shit. it's wednesday afternoon, its basically plus one million outside, and i have been sitting at my desk all day writting an essay about something that i am trying so hard to convince myself that i i believe in. it's hard to believe in much when it is a tropical love fest outside, and all that makes sense is bike rides and best buds and the ocean. this life, you know, sure is a struggle.

things are good and busy. im motivated and obsessed to do endless research, which often leads to production paralysis; not good timing for the last month of school. it will be ok. things will come.

greg left this morning at 5 am for austin, texas to play at SXSW. top exciting and awesome, i couldn't be more happy or proud! basically i tried not to ask too manyy questions about it, because i am jealous and selfish mostly, but what i do know is that he might very well get to see awesome things like andrew w.k. and the mr. show dudes and a whole slew of awesome metal shows and maybe some people from comedians of comedy (maybe i made that part up?) and apparently there is a hardcore festival going on at the same time so probably his head will explode which would be cute because things like: streamers, heart balloons, (vegan)cupcakes, knives, confetti (reflective), puppies, and jokes would spill out everywhere and all over everyone. they would be lucky!

he will be gone for a while and i will have a while to read books and write papers and make things. i'm into mail lately, it really is like baby christmas's when you get stuff, i dont know. i want to send/get more mail!

let's think about keira and greg denton for a while, one because it is her bday and one because he is a hero, a pioneer, a legend in his own right. let's think about these things, and feel lucky.

see ya!xo

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 22:01:22 GMT

-communal groceries are the stupidest idea in the whole world.

everything else is secondary.

spring break '07

Fri, 23 Feb 2007 23:33:10 GMT

KFC is trying to get the pope to bless the "fish snacker", a new sandwich only to be offered during lent. Apparently the restaurant has even sent the pope free samples (SWEET), but he has yet to respond.
Confirm or Deny pope, Confirm or Deny.

life:

- Greg and i have been sick for our whole reading week. I am going to ask school if they can reschedule spring break for next week, so i can get my full wet t-shirt / titty shot contests on. I'm optimistic that they'll be sympathetic, and at the very least give me another week off, if not send me on vacation to mexico or something.

interweb:

- I have spent almost all my time in bed, but when bed sores threaten lethargy, i've been more than indulging in Good 'Ol Facebook. Can we all agree that this website is the top most addictive thing ever? More addictive than smoking anyway, because i haven't missed it one bit since i've been sick, but as if i would get through a day without FB. Remember the days of Livejournal? Myspace? Me neither.

TEEVEE:

- my vote is in for lakisha jones on american idol.

- coronation street makes me suicidal.

- THANK GOD meredith pulled through, but it's too bad she'll be going straight to hell once she dies for real. I feel stupid that i didn't know that once you die, you get to reconsider your options for a few hours and then either continue with the whole being dead thing, or else get back to life. I think my roomate had the best opinion on the potential outcome of meredith's alleged death...they should shoot half the show in Seattle, and half in Heaven.

- I'm pretty offended by the concept of Kurt Browning "Gotta Skate VI" feat. live performance by the Barenaked Ladies.

i'm sorry:

- all the friends i haven't called in weeks (i love you, i promise)
- all the school work i have yet to deal with
- for ruining spring break

xo.

general positive mental force, part 1

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 22:41:57 GMT

-keira is engaged! she is a real grown up, who is really in love, and will have a real husband and maybe real babies! she will have a house, and maybe a pet, but maybe not, because things can add up quickly and pets are tuff work, but maybe a garden, a herb garden, and some bushes, that will need to be tended to bi-monthly. and she will wear diamonds thru it all, a real lady, a real gem. congratulations keira and mike. a big new life.

-i work all the time, almost. if i have not called, or txt'd, or written, i am sorry, really. i think of you and you, and miss you and you, give me a little more time, things will start to calm, i will make it up to you!

-these days are hard, but proud. greg and i work together as much as we can, building and building and moving and borrowing and thinking and carrying and filming and videoing and laughing all of the time, too much. he is the best motivator and inspiration and best friend i could ever imagine working with. we are a super force. seriously.

-this video will finish up this week. maybe next weekend we could hang out, before the next over-zealous project gets underway and i will disappear for weeks all over again.

-we will go to boston soon maybe forever but probably not.
-i still want a dog i would call him horray!-shio or else david caruso at this point
-i will graduate soon. i need to start thinking about grad school? moving?
-dave bush and i will prolly need a roomate this summer, if anyone is looking for cheap accom.
-i'm head over heels obsessed so not much else matters.

greg denton, i'll send you the painting. i miss you.
pete, we should eat together soon. ESM!
winter, fuck you.